One of the things I love about travelling is getting to explore new places; see the sights, visit the museums, learn all about its history etc. However, as much as I adored my jam-packed three days in Tallinn (more about that on the blog soon!) I came back from that holiday needing another!
I’m now admitting to myself that I’m burning out – it’s been a stressful year for me and I’ve been go, go, go for so long that I just can’t remember how to turn off anymore.
It’s something I’ve always been bad at, but now that I’m an almost constant ball of stress, I’m making a concerted effort to make myself ‘turn off’.
Giving myself permission to do this is something I find really, really hard. As a bit of a control freak I’m worried that if I don’t do everything all the time the whole world will fall apart. Plus, when I travel, I guess I get a bit of FOMO (I’m cringing at using that word, it’s almost as bad as YOLO) and try to squeeze in everything during my time there.
So I’ve decided this coming holiday is going to be different. I’m going to have a couple of busy but enjoyable days in Kuala Lumpur, but then I’m off to Langkawi where I’m going to take a ‘real’ holiday and properly unwind.
What’s a real holiday feel like?
I’m aiming for lie-ins and relaxing by the pool or on the beach with a cold drink and my Kindle. Of course we will go out and see some of what Langkawi has to offer, but at a much slower pace and in a less structured manner.
Instead of a packed itinerary, we’re putting together a little sheet of things we’re interesting in checking out and then we’ll pick stuff we’d like to do on a day-to-day basis.
I may do social media bits ‘n’ bobs while I’m on the island, but instead of telling myself I must post everyday, I’m just going to do it if I feel like it. I do wonder if I’ll actually end up on Instagram more, simply because I’m enjoying it – something I haven’t for a while because it’s begun to feel like a chore. I guess we’ll just have to see.
Learning to be kinder to yourself
I’m also trying to be a bit kinder to myself on the run up to the trip. Justin and I tend to run ourselves ragged with work on the weeks coming up to our trip – so much so that it takes most of the holiday for us to begin to de-stress and then straight away, worries start to ramp up again because we begin thinking of all the things that will be waiting for us to sort out as soon as we get home. Yes, seriously, we need help!
So I’m doing something that, for me, is totally crazy – I’m taking two weeks off from the blog. I only made the decision about an hour before I wrote this, as I was sitting looking at my list of pre-holiday jobs and caught myself grinding my teeth.
Now I don’t have to find the time to write four more posts before I go away to cover the time I’m off, which is ah-may-zing. I’ve now got time to concentrate on everything else that needs to get done, and I’ll hopefully arrive at the airport in a week’s time in a much better state of mind.
I know I might sound very silly, but actually stepping back like this is a BIG deal for me, so if you see me anytime soon, do give me a pat on the back!
Will this work?
Will I actually begin to de-stress and allow myself to do bugger all while we’re away? I honestly don’t know. But I have to try, because my current way of life is really becoming bad for my physical and mental health, as well as my relationships with those around me.
I hope that doing this is a step in the right direction, and by stopping for a short while, I’ll learn that the world won’t fall apart around me and that it’s OK to take time out. Just promise me you’ll still be reading our blog when I’m back – OK?!
On a final, serious note, I’d truly love to hear any tips you have to offer me. How do you ‘turn off’?
This isn’t a generic ‘end a blog with a question to get people to comment’ ploy, I’d really love to hear from other people about how they find ways to relax, and tell themselves it’s OK to just stop and smell the roses.
And perhaps also my own admission might help some of you other stressballs out there know you’re not alone…